Confusion

I am so confused 

I just want to scream out to the world

But i really just want to go to a happy place

Some where that i can stop in think

being myself with all the stress

i realized why i live in two different worlds

i live in the real world because i have to

and a live in a fantasy world when i want to get away

I no longer know what i want

i no longer can feel my heart...........

ITS NUMB!

Numb from the thought of hurting you

but also from the fact that im hurting myself

is this what i really want

IM To YOUNG!

No wait

I though age was just a number

I WANT TO SCREAM!

My head is spinning and my mind is blur

my heart is pounding

and my words are slur

i know what to say but the words wont come out

My life feels like a horrible mess right now

like a dream that i want to wake up from

i want to go back to the new world that i made for myself

where there is no hurt

no pain and no choices to make

where i can just be free and live my life

with no consequences and make no sacrifices

BUT WAIT!

I cant go i have a son

I have school

I have a dream to achieve

Thoughts racing through my head

All of this agony

All i need is time 

Time is the key

but i cant find time because the clock is all ways ticking

Tick Tock

the sound makes my head burst

makes my heart want to leap out

and makes things no better or worse

GOD WHAT DO I DO!

please give me a helping hand 

If time is the key

Maybe i just need a friend

to give me advice

to lend me a shoulder

when i need to cry

to tell me its ok and that everything will be fine

i just need some sleep

so just close your eyes

I just need time

but time is not my friend

OOPSS

guess what 

my time just ran out